im back! Happy Environmental Day.. Woohoo

First of all,
Happy World Environment Day to evryone on tis planet.. keke
5th of June is the day we celebrate the environment day.

The celebration of environmental all year round is one of the great hopes for a cleaner and sustainable future..

we can all tap it somehow, regardless of how much money we have..

and we all can do countless things to lead a greener life..
such as..

cycling to work like wat people in Japan, Vietnam n others country doin now.. 

besides we can do recycling and reusing goods..

and choosing green options every time we have to buy something.

Let’s celebrate our beautiful planet by respecting it.
It’s the only one we have.

P/s: Anyone who enjoy reading my blog, mungkin anda kehairanan.. why im not using apa2 gambar in my blog..well, saya malas untuk menguploadkan gmbar memandangkan the internet's line was damn SUCKs.

Bersyukur.. Thank You

i was amazed with 1 of the article tat i read..


abis baca ja artikel tu,
somehow i was thinking.. yang aku ni adalah cukup bertuah..
lucky untuk hidup dalam keadaan yang masi mampu untuk makan nasi, tido atas tilam empuk, naik kereta pegi jalan2, ada keja+gaji n so on.. 
n im grateful for tat.. thankful to Allah SWT.. kerana memberi hamba mu yg khilaf ini dengan nikmat dan rezeki yang Engkau berkati.. 
Berhenti Merungut Dear KHATIJAH!!!!


'Enjoy life how it is and as it comes
Things are worse for others and is a lot better for us
There are many things in your life that will catch your eye
but only a few will catch your heart....'



Tapi..
bukan semua manusia dicipta mempunyai pengertian yang sama..
suda menjadi lumrah untuk sesetengah manusia tidak pernah puas. 
Stop Complaining!
jgn lah merungut sesakali..
Apa yg ada, sebutlah alhamdulillah!
Orang yang merungut, hanya dimurkai Allah..
Setiap ujian, dugaan yang mendatang ada hikmahnya..

apa hikmahnya?

kita akan ingat DIA..

back to my memory...
my bestfren (cla) sentiasa menasihatkan aku..
bahawa, sejauhmana pun kita kuat beramal ibadah, tetap adakah ibadah kita itu cukup?
persoalan itu, membuat aku kembali bertanya pada diriku..
Inilah hikmahnya..

kita patut ucap SYUKUR.. ALHAMDULILAH kerana Allah menurunkan dugaan, ujian kepada kita..
Terima Kasih Ya ALLAH =)


i was fortunate
i have much more than i want..

Thank You Allah..

Wat Can I Say

Evening Diary,

i was sitting on my desk wit my lappy.. n ofkoz on9..

suddenly.. i was shock wen read up 1 of the article in tis gossip on9..
its all about a 14 years old girl confess in her social media Twitter (AdindaEvans) tat she's already lost her virginity..

here i quote some of her words -“Yeah, aku jujor la dgn korang, AKU DA PERNAH MAEN ! puas ? ade ke org nak mengaku mcm ni ? takkan punya .. bia org nak pandang hina kat kita. asalkan kita ade MARUAH DIRI ! thank you ”-

Well Adik, I do applaud you for being true to yourself for admitting what you have done tapi I feel confuse when you say 'asalkan ada maruah diri'. Which part yang anda rasa anda mempunyai maruah diri?

Sometimes I do wonder why young people feel the need to brag on doing stupid things like this.
Yes you can say you are happy now, doing the things you do..
wait for another 10 years and you regret it your whole life. 

Somehow, virginity is no longer an issue dis days. *shrug* in fact, the more promiscuous you are, the popular you get.

Now who should we blame? the stuff we see on TV? their peers? or their parents?.

i became her follower juz to know the pictures of the story..
N wat i see is..
People tweet about this all over timeline last night.
They spreading the link and somehow,
still this girl didn't realized hundreds comments blaming her for such daredevil confession.

I believe something was or still happen to her...
resulting for some emotion and attitude disorder...
not saying dia gila or what...
just some disorder...
she really needs some help...

dont blame her 100% 4 wat she doin to herself..

Apapun, kita yang suda dewasa  ini sepatutnya bukan menghukum,
sebaliknya memberi nasihat sebagai ORANG DEWASA yang akalnya lebih baik dan matang.

Tapi bila baca balik tweet-tweet orang yang dikatakan dewasa INI, aku rasa macam mereka INI yang berusia 5 atau 6 tahun saja..

nya urang ketani, mmbari sakit jiwa ganya membaca kumen mu ani lai..

sorry to say la dear all..

Uneasy feelin, ruin my Day.. huhhh

Dear Diary.. 


i dont even know how to tell everyone tat i am stressed out..


A strong person knows how to keep their life in order. 
Even with tears in their eyes, they still manage to say "I'm OK" with a smile..


n tats wat i do.. 
im not pretending to who am i..
i juz dont want people to judge me, that im not enough to be under pressure..


but who? Yes, who? in tis world like to be under pressure.. especially in tis asshole job..


i was sad.. feels sad.. but no one know.. no even single person want to know.. including HIM..


i just need someone tat understand me, and hear my voice.. hear wat i want to say.. i dont need anything from u.. the things that i want from u is ur attention, ur concern bout me..
is tat so hard for u to knowing me.. to understand me..

happy gawai days to all my dayak frens ther in sarawak and wherever u're..

n not to be late, to all my cuzie, uncle n aunt back ther in Sabah Tadau Tagazo do Kaamatan y'all..

woohooo

ther is no perfecto to u or me?

*sigh*
sumtimes, my feelin ruin evrythin..
but i juz couldn control my feelin..

im juz being worried..
im juz being honest to myself n you too

myb it rights, tat i'm selfish..
but its all about you..
im being selfish bcoz of you..
u blame for evrything, wat im done for you..
hv u ever think back boy..

im yearn ur love..
but sumtimes everything was goes wrong..

Thank You

this is a story about him..

i meet him somewhere in august of 2010..
we started to date each otha only in 1 week after meet up..
its like a movie story for us.. meet up, then fall in love..
we not take a longer time to move on, n take big step in to relationship..
i do love him..

many things i adored bout him..
he always being honest to me, even though it might be hurt me for some reason..
(but it doesnt meant, love is only about happiness..)
i take it as a journey of my love..



to be with him, i learnt how to love myself besides othas
to be with him, i learnt to cry othas difficulty

indirectly, he teach me how to see a things in opposite perspective or view..
he teach me how to be creative in thinking..
he was creative guy ever, that i meet..
his passion only on Photographer.. (this passion, is actually how accidentally we meet up.. it would be marvelous memorable n i will keep it 4ever in mind :) )..

he was a good guy ever.. he taught me, he remind, to never pass over my religion beliefs..
"never left prayer" .. Prayer is Pillar of Islam..
i love him, because of ALLAH..

for him..
family will comes first..
i appreciate wat he said..wat he doin..
only for his family..
because his families is mine too..

*i do love my families too.. Mumy Dady i want u guys to be proud of me one day..

i will continue tis story back again.. see ya..

Digest and then think deep n rationally

i am in dilemma..

shud i further studies? or awaits n awaits to workin wit DM..
im no longer "tahan" wit the surrounding of workin place..
myb its true wat my colleague reporter said.. "klu ada pressure keja, itu baru namanya life"..

well, its easy 4 u to said man, because we're not same..
u not in my shoes.. u will never have a same felt bout tis life..

however, i must goes on tis life.. DM is a place i can earn money for now.. but not in future.. i believe i can find more better place to go..to work.. Yakin Pada Rezeki ALLAH SWT.. Yakin Pada Nikmat ALLAH..

furthermore, i hv to restructured my life back again.. i wanna do something that im happy for..
Allahhuakhbar! Permudahkan segalanya utk hamba mu yg khilaf ini, YA ALLAH..

last year was a memorable moment to me not forgot..

i got a first job, as my expectation.. i got my first salary n paid to PTPTN..
some of my 2010 wish list was dream come true..

i became a junior journalist at Daily Mail.. workin as journalist make me running out of time everyday..
i never regret wat i get, wat i doin.. im too naive tat time, if i thinking back..

after almost 1 year workin.. i thinking alot.. i loved my career.. but i do more love with my life..
i want sumthin more better than 'tis'.. n more better on wat i do.. more better for now..
im no regret 4 wat i doin it 4 a year back time.. like i said, im jus too naive..

Year Comes And Goes

day to day, month to month, year come year.. its just a same to me..but today its changes

after 5 months we celebrate 2011 new years, i've through many things in tis life..

Uni lifes was not same wit life after workin...
workin Makes u feel more responsible, more independent, more matured then before, more patience..
da reality of life was kinda hard to face.. alots to think.. alots to be responsible to..
but lifes must goes on.. whatever it takes just moving on..

Afterall workin makes me became a women with vision..

Its been awhile me didnt open my blog..

missin to write on this on9 diary.. sorry im forgetting you for a long time..

u full wif dusty.. will cleaning u as soon as possible dear diary ;)