ther is no perfecto to u or me?

*sigh*
sumtimes, my feelin ruin evrythin..
but i juz couldn control my feelin..

im juz being worried..
im juz being honest to myself n you too

myb it rights, tat i'm selfish..
but its all about you..
im being selfish bcoz of you..
u blame for evrything, wat im done for you..
hv u ever think back boy..

im yearn ur love..
but sumtimes everything was goes wrong..

Thank You

this is a story about him..

i meet him somewhere in august of 2010..
we started to date each otha only in 1 week after meet up..
its like a movie story for us.. meet up, then fall in love..
we not take a longer time to move on, n take big step in to relationship..
i do love him..

many things i adored bout him..
he always being honest to me, even though it might be hurt me for some reason..
(but it doesnt meant, love is only about happiness..)
i take it as a journey of my love..



to be with him, i learnt how to love myself besides othas
to be with him, i learnt to cry othas difficulty

indirectly, he teach me how to see a things in opposite perspective or view..
he teach me how to be creative in thinking..
he was creative guy ever, that i meet..
his passion only on Photographer.. (this passion, is actually how accidentally we meet up.. it would be marvelous memorable n i will keep it 4ever in mind :) )..

he was a good guy ever.. he taught me, he remind, to never pass over my religion beliefs..
"never left prayer" .. Prayer is Pillar of Islam..
i love him, because of ALLAH..

for him..
family will comes first..
i appreciate wat he said..wat he doin..
only for his family..
because his families is mine too..

*i do love my families too.. Mumy Dady i want u guys to be proud of me one day..

i will continue tis story back again.. see ya..

Digest and then think deep n rationally

i am in dilemma..

shud i further studies? or awaits n awaits to workin wit DM..
im no longer "tahan" wit the surrounding of workin place..
myb its true wat my colleague reporter said.. "klu ada pressure keja, itu baru namanya life"..

well, its easy 4 u to said man, because we're not same..
u not in my shoes.. u will never have a same felt bout tis life..

however, i must goes on tis life.. DM is a place i can earn money for now.. but not in future.. i believe i can find more better place to go..to work.. Yakin Pada Rezeki ALLAH SWT.. Yakin Pada Nikmat ALLAH..

furthermore, i hv to restructured my life back again.. i wanna do something that im happy for..
Allahhuakhbar! Permudahkan segalanya utk hamba mu yg khilaf ini, YA ALLAH..

last year was a memorable moment to me not forgot..

i got a first job, as my expectation.. i got my first salary n paid to PTPTN..
some of my 2010 wish list was dream come true..

i became a junior journalist at Daily Mail.. workin as journalist make me running out of time everyday..
i never regret wat i get, wat i doin.. im too naive tat time, if i thinking back..

after almost 1 year workin.. i thinking alot.. i loved my career.. but i do more love with my life..
i want sumthin more better than 'tis'.. n more better on wat i do.. more better for now..
im no regret 4 wat i doin it 4 a year back time.. like i said, im jus too naive..

Year Comes And Goes

day to day, month to month, year come year.. its just a same to me..but today its changes

after 5 months we celebrate 2011 new years, i've through many things in tis life..

Uni lifes was not same wit life after workin...
workin Makes u feel more responsible, more independent, more matured then before, more patience..
da reality of life was kinda hard to face.. alots to think.. alots to be responsible to..
but lifes must goes on.. whatever it takes just moving on..

Afterall workin makes me became a women with vision..

Its been awhile me didnt open my blog..

missin to write on this on9 diary.. sorry im forgetting you for a long time..

u full wif dusty.. will cleaning u as soon as possible dear diary ;)